Lately, i have a problem of eating. LOL...it sounds funny but putting on weight is the worst nightmare for most of the girls. Last time, i have a strong mind power. When i decided to do something, most of the time i manage to do it 100%. Now, when i ask myself to stop eating, i can't even control myself. And, ended up putting on weight. SOBS!!!!

In college, i eat quite a lot too. Breakfast, lunch and dinner. It the dominant meal people eat but when you see the amount and types of food i consumed, you will raise an eyebrown....

How to be determine to achieve what i want when my will power is back to square one?? sigh....so upseting. I thought as least when i have this holiday break, i will stop thinking of eating!!!!!!!! WAIL!!!!!!!!

*cry*

Have you ever wonder why there are uncountable trials set in our lives? Did you ever wished that you are 'excused' from going through such pain? Do you still take the road which will bring you pain when you already know that it's not the path you should take?

I wished that there are not such thing as 'pain'

What i'm feeling right now is not rejection. I just wished that he could share his troubles to me. I believe that there are no 'more than friend' feeling towards him. But, knowing that he is more comfortable with her, hurt me silently --- i didn't know till now.

I used to like him, but when i know he treat all girls like how he treated me, i stop pouring feelings for him. Bcoz, why continue to have feelings for him when i'm d only one caring for him? why continue, when he's not the one for me --- he is M. sigh.....

but, i felt the warmth and comfort when he is around.

All good feelings stop when she is around. I have to bare this pain...have to be silent....

but, i can't be silent no more...

PLEASE LORD, take away this feeling.....take away all pain.....take away my troubles!!!!!!

I must be brave to say that i'm strong.....

I must be daring to take one step ahead.....

so, people will look up to me....

and know that i'm not weak,

i'm not undependable!!!!

JUST GRANT ME THE COURAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I PROMISE I WILL BE SILENT NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!

i might be quiet in the inside, but i'm shouting in d outside!!!!! 

Have you ever encounter something you knew will never happened? No matter how hard you tried, how much effort you put in. The result remain the same.

I know falling for a 'M' is a big 'no no' for christian. In the beginning, i just want to give myself a try, what if he is touched by Jesus, or what if he wants to convert to christianity like Linda Joy? I know it's a childish thought. So, i decided to back out. But, what if the person you love (you cannot be with) have a special feeling for you, would you feel that fate is fooling you?

He never tell me that he have feeling for me or whatever. Just deep down inside, i think he might....i hope that i will not be shaken, for jesus is much more important. Without Him, there are nothing left for me.

Jesus, help me to face my trials. Help me when the storm comes. Don't break me, but build me!!!

hello dear friends,

sorry haven't been uploading anything. Been really busy. and i can't simply come home. *cry* life of a nurse *SIGH*.

anyway, just wanna say that am really fine here. Thanks for all the comments and msges. I thought no one will read my multiply blog...wahaha...

about my college life report...go visit my blogspot side la...

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p/s : leave some *huggies* ahhh....haha (means comments) LOL...JUST JOKING.

It had been a really long time since i blogged here. It is hard to maintain two blogsite. So greedy. LOL. Next Monday i will be entering the world of nurses. Enduring hard work, learing to be patient to all people and to love one another without hoping for any personal gain. As i looked back to the past, i realize how much i've changed. I used to be a stingy, rude, greedy and immature brat. I really don't know how i managed to changed to be person who is able to understand the pain of the world and be able to be there for those who needed my help. I felt the joy of helping others and i love to comfort people. You must think i'm a little crazy. LOL. I'm really excited to enter this new challenge in life. I think the days ahead of me will not be boring. Hope i'm strong enough to get through this course.

After nearly 7 months of rotting at home, i realize i didn't really do anything. *no wonder i gain weight*. haha. How much time wasted!! Sigh, i won't be able to taste this type of relaxation already unless i retire. WAHAHA...that time i wanna hang out with my hubby at Tahiti "if i ever have one" lol.

I realize i upload a lot of my precious music at multiply. Hope you all enjoy downloading as how i enjoyed downloading yours. LOL. Got extra time, i download more!!!! WOHOHO!! POKAI LOR...

anyway, mmmm....nothing to say alreadi....visit my blogspot site lar.......*i might update once a while*....ByeBye....take care!! God Bless.

With love,

Kimberly